23 June, 2009
Wish You Were Here
Seriously though, I do. I've been missing having friends who "know" you. As in, they know why I am pissed off or upset, and they know exactly that they did to piss me off. No questions or conversations needed. I'm a fan of a little thing called "communication through non-communication" when it comes to friends, I really am. They do something that really gets under your skins, so you give them the silent treatment for 30-45 minutes or so, until finally they say, "So...do you want to get a drink or something?" Then all is forgiven and right again in the world, and the unspoken knowledge that they will never do insert offense here again, because that really chaps your hide, is silently understood. Done and done.
How long does it take before friends can actually read your mind? I mean, damn, is a little ESP in friends too much to ask for? (I think not, I have science on my side thankyou:
http://www.livescience.com/health/050427_mind_readers.html ) Ahem. I rest my case.
I was talking to Huffster last night about it via text, and she was like, "how do people not know the Lauer stare?" She is right. I wear my emotions on my sleeve. And by sleeve, I mean FACE. Really, there is no hiding it when I am pissed and quite frankly I don't even try to anymore. Also, I've come to accept recently that I can be a little...intimidating. When I get "the stare", I can only imagine whoever is around me just hopes that walking on eggshells will make them invisible enough to get around me on their frantic escape out the door.
Meh. What can you do?
I've said it before, and I'll say it again: probably one of the worst things about moving around is that sometimes, no matter how many friends you make, you just feel like no one really "gets" you. Or, you get the suspicion that no one really cares enough to actually wants to listen to you when you feel all scared and/or weird about something in your life and need to talk to someone. And I can't stand it when people try and give you advice when you are really getting something off your chest. When someone tries to give me advice when I am spilling my guts to them, I take it as "here, do this and shut up now." Well thanks for listening. Asshole.
I dunno, I guess since humans are selfish beings, they sometimes forget to that other people have feelings, too. Or when they do remember, they just don't care. I want to try and eliminate these people from my life, or at the very least not let them get me down.